Autumn

Autumn comes with a nip in the air

A sign it will get louder itself to declare

Frosting our gardens with its icy fingers

This whitening will last longer as it stays and lingers

Days get shorter and nights get longer

The sun has lost his edge and no longer stronger

Fruit on trees must be picked and stored

Otherwise Jack Frost will rot the hoard

Leaves on trees turning red, russet and yellow

All as they all turn to rest and mellow

Spider’s webs sparkle in the early morning sun

Like diamonds they glisten, shine and run

Flowers shrivel and slowly fade

Autumn has arrived to ultimately raid

Child Abuse and its after effects

Your abusers give you the feeling of worthlessness

Your confidence becomes less and less

Until you start to believe you deserve it

You sink into that bottomless pit

Every part of your life becomes black

Is there a way out or can you really track back

A return to innocence is lost

But at what ultimate cost

You live your life on the edge

Between you and a happy life; forever a wedge

What did you do to deserve this shame?

Stop!!!  you are not really to blame

Someone else took your life and gave you pain

That’s why you feel your life has gone down the drain

Getting close to people leads to pain

So alone now I journey on my slow train

A Rose

The bud shows it’s a peek of bright scarlet red

It knows for its beauty it has been bred

Promise of soft petals to open beyond compare

Its needs sun and rain for more to bare

Opening slowly it unfurls its glorious scarlet dress

None can deny it will in evidently impress

Soft petals open and curl back like silk and satin

It holds the crown of horticulture within

It will eventually fade its bright satin dress

But never to look an untidy mess

Even with age beauty cannot be stopped ; it will still last

Standing tall and true till each petal ultimately falls past

Choice ????

We are born into this world of trouble and strife with no choice

Sometimes child hood trauma leaves us with no voice

  Children torn apart by war and political argument

Religion held up as a reason to kill and anger vent

To travel on rafts and die in the sea

No choice as children this could have been me or thee

Where is the mercy in a world of turmoil and death?

Capitalism has paid its last dime

Leaving a world of no reason or rhyme

Have and have nots shows up like that sore thumb

How can we be on this earth so long not to have learnt?

This planet is not ours to have burnt

Wild life tries to cling on with paws and bleeding claws

While political leaders are inevitably the cause

Man and equal women could sort it out once and for all

Women have a voice that needs to come forward to shout and call

Peace is only a word but action speaks for change

This world needs to calm and rearrange

What Sue Lambert Trust has done for me?

I have been on the longest life journey

Trauma had shut me in since the age of three

Silence reigned supreme; words not known

A child who wore a permanent frown

I felt fifty at five with an overcoat of shame

Someone who knew better was to blame

Writing has broken the spell and silence is at an end

Thoughts and emotions in my mind to bend

Finally my life and mind becomes balanced and true

So many sad tears and years long overdue

A life stolen and filled with dread

Now to seek happiness before I am dead

The Inner Child

My inner child was trapped suspended in trauma and shock

But no one ever knew or cared enough to unlock

It has been in my later years

I finally let out the full sadness and tears

Abusive childhoods do real life changing harm

People live their lives in turmoil and alarm

Afraid to get close to anyone or really trust

Left to find out about an inner trauma was a must

My brain was damaged half alive

But to get it all back I continued to strive

At sixty it awoke from sleep

Emotions buried so hidden and deep