The Journey Begins

One of our clients is a prolific writer of poems. This is her way of empowering and expressing herself. She has kindly offered to share one of her poems here.

The Journey Begins

Today my journey will begin

A journey I hope that I can win

For forty years I have lived in fear

Frightened and scared to even shed a tear.

The pain inside is too hard to see

But bit by bit it’s destroying me

Everyday I live in hope

That one day I will manage to cope.

My body does not belong to me

But belongs to the people who abused it for free

To understand ‘why’ is all I ask

So I can stop hiding behind this mask.

I have always been told not to tell a soul

Because my body would end up buried in a hole

I have to be strong if I want to be free

But this will be hard, the fear of abuse still frightens me.

The flashbacks are so very real,

And remind me so much of the pain I feel

My body has been hurt in so many ways

And I have been locked away for many days.

I apologise now for how bad I have been

It’s so difficult to cope with the things I have seen

I have tried to be strong and live with the pain

But everyday feels like I’m waling through rain.

For me to trust is hard to do

But I have to try to believe in you

Believe that you will understand

When it gets too difficult to hold my hand.

Today my journey has begun

And all I want to do is run

But I will try and be strong right to the end

And hopefully one day my mind and body can mend.

By: H